Losing someone is one of the worst feelings that we have to experience. It's even worse when it's a conscious choice.
Due to things that i'm not going to explain here, I had to make that choice, and it'll always haunt me. It's haunting me right now, every moment of the day.
I have to figure out how to do this, or that choice will be in vain. I have to jump into things that I have to do. I have to make myself better.